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[flightforfreedom]

[ There are some times that Poe is thankful for his powers. This, being able to ask his communicator to scramble his ID so that he can post anonymously, is one of them. He doesn't do this often. But something has been bothering him more and more, lately. ]

has there ever been something, or a multiple somethings, that you did that at the time you knew was right, and just, but then later - maybe after coming here - now makes it a little harder to sleep at night?

a lot of us come from places where we had to do a lot of shit we wish we didn't

but we could still tell ourselves we were doing the right thing

and i still think i was doing the right thing

but here i meet ghosts and i can't help but wonder if there wasn't another way

how do you deal with it, when you can't justify everything to yourself anymore? and that's not a rhetorical question, i honestly want to know




do you think earth has made you a better or a worse person

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[flightforfreedom]

no, they didn't

they still don't

if i hadn't done it, i'd have more blood on my hands than i do now
action or inaction was going to result in a lot of death, no matter what

doesn't seem to help, though



so what would you be doing now, if you could

[loyal_soldier]

Then it's supposed to be easy to say that you made the right choice, but obviously it isn't turning out that way.

If there were more knowledgable people here, it would probably be easier to process.

Those kind of thoughts aren't productive. I'd rather not focus on them.

[flightforfreedom]

yeah

honestly

if my commanding officer were here, it would be a hell of a lot easier to process

but she's not

so this is what i've got

i'd stop focusing on them if i could