un: anonymous

[flightforfreedom]

[ There are some times that Poe is thankful for his powers. This, being able to ask his communicator to scramble his ID so that he can post anonymously, is one of them. He doesn't do this often. But something has been bothering him more and more, lately. ]

has there ever been something, or a multiple somethings, that you did that at the time you knew was right, and just, but then later - maybe after coming here - now makes it a little harder to sleep at night?

a lot of us come from places where we had to do a lot of shit we wish we didn't

but we could still tell ourselves we were doing the right thing

and i still think i was doing the right thing

but here i meet ghosts and i can't help but wonder if there wasn't another way

how do you deal with it, when you can't justify everything to yourself anymore? and that's not a rhetorical question, i honestly want to know




do you think earth has made you a better or a worse person

Comments

Re: private

[knaval]

i don't want to punch you

sorry. i know how frustrating it is when you want to take down some people with a target area and they run away like the cowardly slag drippings they are.

war brings a special kind of mentality
all the decepticon mtos i killed were like me, too. they were just thrown into the battle with no chance to even really figure out their own name and fought out of fear and instinct.
here is a relative peace-time, you have to remember

i think there are very few options you get to make yourself in a war, ones we have here
if you had met those people, would they have open fired? or would they have put their weapons down and tried to make peace?
i could talk to a non djd decepticon here and probably find some level of getting along with them, but back home we'd immediately try to tear each other's heads off

maybe this good person you met would've tried to kill you back home too. even if they didn't want to.
it goes both ways.