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[flightforfreedom]

[ There are some times that Poe is thankful for his powers. This, being able to ask his communicator to scramble his ID so that he can post anonymously, is one of them. He doesn't do this often. But something has been bothering him more and more, lately. ]

has there ever been something, or a multiple somethings, that you did that at the time you knew was right, and just, but then later - maybe after coming here - now makes it a little harder to sleep at night?

a lot of us come from places where we had to do a lot of shit we wish we didn't

but we could still tell ourselves we were doing the right thing

and i still think i was doing the right thing

but here i meet ghosts and i can't help but wonder if there wasn't another way

how do you deal with it, when you can't justify everything to yourself anymore? and that's not a rhetorical question, i honestly want to know




do you think earth has made you a better or a worse person

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Re: text; anonymous

[flightforfreedom]

that's probably a healthier way of doing it

the stakes just aren't anywhere near as high here and i have a lot of time on my hands to think over old problems


so how do you do better now

text; anonymous

[patchricide]

You've touched on it a bit. I try not to keep too much time on my hands, and instead look towards the next objective.

There's nothing left to be gained from the past. So when I dwell on it, I instead get caught up in the things I've lost, and after that in fears of what I might lose next. Setting a clear goal helps keep me on-course towards the future, ripe with things that can still be gained.

But it *IS* harder here than it was where I came from, too. As you've said, the stakes aren't as high, and so I have a lot more freedom in setting goals.