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maskormenace2015-01-19 03:03 pm
glowsferatu) wrote in maskormenace2015-01-19 03:03 pm
Entry tags:
- jaime reyes | blue beetle,
- † ana ramir | taranto,
- † annie leonhart | n/a,
- † barnaby brooks jr. | n/a,
- † clark kent | superman,
- † croach | the tracker,
- † cu chulainn | lancer,
- † death | didi,
- † elsa | the snow queen,
- † flash thompson | agent venom,
- † freddie lounds | tattlecrime,
- † frederick chilton | chief of staff!!,
- † gon freecs | n/a,
- † greed | n/a,
- † grey | n/a,
- † hartley rathaway | the pied piper,
- † hazel lockwood | n/a,
- † houka inumuta | n/a,
- † jean kirstein | n/a,
- † jesse pinkman | diesel,
- † john mitchell | n/a,
- † john watson | n/a,
- † kaine parker | scarlet spider,
- † kanaya maryam-lalonde | psychopomp,
- † karen starr | power girl,
- † karkat vantas | knight of blood,
- † kate bishop | hawkeye,
- † kitty jones | n/a,
- † kotetsu t. kaburagi | wild tiger,
- † minho | n/a,
- † newt | the glue,
- † rick bradbury | n/a,
- † rose lalonde | seer of light,
- † samara | the justicar,
- † tempo | quake woman,
- † thomas | n/a
006 ♍ voice
[ kanaya knows she has to make this confession, not that she's particularly looking forward to it. but now that they've put her in solitary, nothing about this punishment has been satisfying. she needs something better.
everyone needs to know, but she doesn't want their pity, and doesn't deserve their sympathy. so. she kind of goes a little too far in the other direction, there. ]
I've been quiet the past few days. I say this not as an apology, because I don't particularly give a shit, but as an explanation. For those who don't know me, my name is Kanaya Maryam, an for the past few months I've been moonlighting as a costumed thug. One might even go so far as to say I was a supervillain.
Shocking, isn't it? I was a bit surprised, myself. [ not that she's going to explain that one. ]
As Hobgoblin, I committed numerous crimes, whether disrupting traffic, harassing the costumed set, playing ghost in a haunted house, other, more serious infractions. Kidnapping. Stalking. And...worse than that. [ her flippant tone cracks, her voice falling low and shaky. ] I've-- I've hurt people. People who didn't deserve it. Innocents.
[ there's a fury brimming in that last word, a self-loathing and shame. she can feel her hands shaking, her knuckles going white as she balls her fists. but they won't see that, it's important that they don't. if they recognize any remorse, it will defeat the whole purpose.
she takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly as she collects herself again. ]
For all of these things, the most the local authorities have seen fit to do is stick me in a room alone without my powers. Which is really great, I must say. Wonderful to know that we feed and house our criminals when law-abiding residents have no such amenities, especially when they aren't registered! I must say this world's punitive measures are deeply impressive, it truly overwhelms me with compunction, how much softer-handed it is than I expected when I turned myself in. I suppose I shouldn't be really surprised, when the approach to everything is such a joke, such a limp attitude toward justice is at least consistent.
But it isn't real justice. It's a mockery. [ she thinks of terezi, and wonders if she'd be more embarrassed by the meagerness of it, or that kanaya submitted herself willingly. terezi would know what to do here. ]
I'm sure many of you could do better, someone who really believes in the subject, unless you're too stuck in all the nonsense moralizing humans too often preoccupy themselves with. You're heroes. I'm a villain. That seems simple enough to me.
If you want to see real justice done, I'm not going anywhere.
everyone needs to know, but she doesn't want their pity, and doesn't deserve their sympathy. so. she kind of goes a little too far in the other direction, there. ]
I've been quiet the past few days. I say this not as an apology, because I don't particularly give a shit, but as an explanation. For those who don't know me, my name is Kanaya Maryam, an for the past few months I've been moonlighting as a costumed thug. One might even go so far as to say I was a supervillain.
Shocking, isn't it? I was a bit surprised, myself. [ not that she's going to explain that one. ]
As Hobgoblin, I committed numerous crimes, whether disrupting traffic, harassing the costumed set, playing ghost in a haunted house, other, more serious infractions. Kidnapping. Stalking. And...worse than that. [ her flippant tone cracks, her voice falling low and shaky. ] I've-- I've hurt people. People who didn't deserve it. Innocents.
[ there's a fury brimming in that last word, a self-loathing and shame. she can feel her hands shaking, her knuckles going white as she balls her fists. but they won't see that, it's important that they don't. if they recognize any remorse, it will defeat the whole purpose.
she takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly as she collects herself again. ]
For all of these things, the most the local authorities have seen fit to do is stick me in a room alone without my powers. Which is really great, I must say. Wonderful to know that we feed and house our criminals when law-abiding residents have no such amenities, especially when they aren't registered! I must say this world's punitive measures are deeply impressive, it truly overwhelms me with compunction, how much softer-handed it is than I expected when I turned myself in. I suppose I shouldn't be really surprised, when the approach to everything is such a joke, such a limp attitude toward justice is at least consistent.
But it isn't real justice. It's a mockery. [ she thinks of terezi, and wonders if she'd be more embarrassed by the meagerness of it, or that kanaya submitted herself willingly. terezi would know what to do here. ]
I'm sure many of you could do better, someone who really believes in the subject, unless you're too stuck in all the nonsense moralizing humans too often preoccupy themselves with. You're heroes. I'm a villain. That seems simple enough to me.
If you want to see real justice done, I'm not going anywhere.
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[ which is to say, yes. ]
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You feel your suffering will be just.
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And I'm not being silly, it's always been true. Hope has never had any positive effect in my life.
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If those people chose to forgive you and not seek punishment, could you accept that?
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[ that's a pretty clear cut answer. ]
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[ no, it really is because of her guilt, but she's not about to let herself see it that way. ]
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[ now she's just being unhelpfully obtuse. ]
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Has anyone taken you up on your offer?
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But it's funny, the way most of them are reacting, you'd think I was either a saint or a liar. I've never been particularly good at either one.
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No. They haven't.
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I really should have known better.
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There's never any such thing as objective truth unless you're dealing with math, and even then I've seen some pocket dimensions that'll flip that on its head.
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The way events progress isn't subjective, I was there, I know the situation far better than anyone who wasn't, anyone who's never had to live in my head.
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Have you ever seen Rashomon, Kanaya? It's a very good Earth movie.
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[ except rose, rose knows the whole story. but kanaya isn't bout to betray her involvement, both to protect her (because she's done so well with that already) and out of her own shame. ]