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[ kanaya knows she has to make this confession, not that she's particularly looking forward to it. but now that they've put her in solitary, nothing about this punishment has been satisfying. she needs something better.

everyone needs to know, but she doesn't want their pity, and doesn't deserve their sympathy. so. she kind of goes a little too far in the other direction, there. ]

I've been quiet the past few days. I say this not as an apology, because I don't particularly give a shit, but as an explanation. For those who don't know me, my name is Kanaya Maryam, an for the past few months I've been moonlighting as a costumed thug. One might even go so far as to say I was a supervillain.

Shocking, isn't it? I was a bit surprised, myself. [ not that she's going to explain that one. ]

As Hobgoblin, I committed numerous crimes, whether disrupting traffic, harassing the costumed set, playing ghost in a haunted house, other, more serious infractions. Kidnapping. Stalking. And...worse than that. [ her flippant tone cracks, her voice falling low and shaky. ] I've-- I've hurt people. People who didn't deserve it. Innocents.

[ there's a fury brimming in that last word, a self-loathing and shame. she can feel her hands shaking, her knuckles going white as she balls her fists. but they won't see that, it's important that they don't. if they recognize any remorse, it will defeat the whole purpose.

she takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly as she collects herself again. ]

For all of these things, the most the local authorities have seen fit to do is stick me in a room alone without my powers. Which is really great, I must say. Wonderful to know that we feed and house our criminals when law-abiding residents have no such amenities, especially when they aren't registered! I must say this world's punitive measures are deeply impressive, it truly overwhelms me with compunction, how much softer-handed it is than I expected when I turned myself in. I suppose I shouldn't be really surprised, when the approach to everything is such a joke, such a limp attitude toward justice is at least consistent.

But it isn't real justice. It's a mockery. [ she thinks of terezi, and wonders if she'd be more embarrassed by the meagerness of it, or that kanaya submitted herself willingly. terezi would know what to do here. ]

I'm sure many of you could do better, someone who really believes in the subject, unless you're too stuck in all the nonsense moralizing humans too often preoccupy themselves with. You're heroes. I'm a villain. That seems simple enough to me.

If you want to see real justice done, I'm not going anywhere.

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Are you fucking serious? You've never met anyone who fought with magic, or energy projection? I'm sure I'd love to see how well you fight against an explosion!

[ magic is a big deal, kaine. it's blown a hole through her gut, it could blow his head up. you never know what you'll get with magic. ]

Oh. That.

[No cartoon friendship bullshit. At least there's that.]

She's already shown how little she uses that well.

Why, because she hasn't killed you yet?

[ her voice drops lower, seething. ] Because she didn't kill me?

Why would we fight? [He's asking largely because he's curious.]

It only took you this long to get to my point, congratulations. You have no reason to fight, and so you've had no opportunity to witness.

You're in no position whatsoever to make statements about her capabilities.

No, you two had no reason to fight, either. That's why you're both pulling this melodramatic bullshit in public.

[ goddammit rose. ]

Just because you're "the edgy Spider-Man" doesn't mean you were actually on the opposite moral side of any fight of hers.

I can't say the same.

I don't fucking care about morality. I care about goblins. If this goblin shit is a sign of what's on the horizon, I want to know.

If all it takes to turn your world on its ear is for one goblin to be more on your side than another goblin's, you must live in a very fragile, small-minded world.

Is that what I said?

You keep talking about how "this is about goblins!" And that we had no reason to fight! When neither is actually true, that we had reason to fight is proof enough that it has nothing to do with goblins.

Honestly, if that isn't what you're saying, I really have to wonder if you're saying anything at all.

If you've forgotten, I asked about Osborn.

And if you've forgotten, I told you I was acting alone.

Which I don't buy. Why did she call herself the goblin? Why are you calling yourself the hobgoblin? I asked Osborn this, and he didn't give a very good answer, either.

Is it that the answer really isn't very good, or are you simply that it wasn't the answer you wanted?

It's because the answer I want to hear is the right one. The truthful one.

You don't care about the truth. All you want is ammunition to fuel your existing grudges.

Anything I say that isn't all about him is going to be wrong to you.

Then give a good, logical reason for why you both used goblin identities that makes sense.

Like you're going to answer to good logic. And just who are you that I should be giving you any answers?

Just because you decided to be some poor facsimile of someone else's theme doesn't give you room to project that onto everyone else.

"Decided." I didn't choose this name, idiot.

Oh, I'm sure you ended up wearing a spider professional by a perfect accident, then!

It was.

[There is a weird sincerity to his voice ...]

But that just proves that it wasn't an accident for you.

Because I think you're projecting?

I'm not.

You really are. Unless that costume's bonded to your bones, you had a choice of whether to wear it or not. You wanted the spider.

So, you must think I wanted to goblin similarly, because someone else had it. Why would I be working with Osborn?

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