glowsferatu: rude, sad (Is It Wrong Not To Always Be Glad)
ᴘsychopomp 💀 ([personal profile] glowsferatu) wrote in [community profile] maskormenace2015-01-19 03:03 pm

006 ♍ voice

[ kanaya knows she has to make this confession, not that she's particularly looking forward to it. but now that they've put her in solitary, nothing about this punishment has been satisfying. she needs something better.

everyone needs to know, but she doesn't want their pity, and doesn't deserve their sympathy. so. she kind of goes a little too far in the other direction, there.
]

I've been quiet the past few days. I say this not as an apology, because I don't particularly give a shit, but as an explanation. For those who don't know me, my name is Kanaya Maryam, an for the past few months I've been moonlighting as a costumed thug. One might even go so far as to say I was a supervillain.

Shocking, isn't it? I was a bit surprised, myself. [ not that she's going to explain that one. ]

As Hobgoblin, I committed numerous crimes, whether disrupting traffic, harassing the costumed set, playing ghost in a haunted house, other, more serious infractions. Kidnapping. Stalking. And...worse than that. [ her flippant tone cracks, her voice falling low and shaky. ] I've-- I've hurt people. People who didn't deserve it. Innocents.

[ there's a fury brimming in that last word, a self-loathing and shame. she can feel her hands shaking, her knuckles going white as she balls her fists. but they won't see that, it's important that they don't. if they recognize any remorse, it will defeat the whole purpose.

she takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly as she collects herself again.
]

For all of these things, the most the local authorities have seen fit to do is stick me in a room alone without my powers. Which is really great, I must say. Wonderful to know that we feed and house our criminals when law-abiding residents have no such amenities, especially when they aren't registered! I must say this world's punitive measures are deeply impressive, it truly overwhelms me with compunction, how much softer-handed it is than I expected when I turned myself in. I suppose I shouldn't be really surprised, when the approach to everything is such a joke, such a limp attitude toward justice is at least consistent.

But it isn't real justice. It's a mockery. [ she thinks of terezi, and wonders if she'd be more embarrassed by the meagerness of it, or that kanaya submitted herself willingly. terezi would know what to do here. ]

I'm sure many of you could do better, someone who really believes in the subject, unless you're too stuck in all the nonsense moralizing humans too often preoccupy themselves with. You're heroes. I'm a villain. That seems simple enough to me.

If you want to see real justice done, I'm not going anywhere.
boobwindow: (basri's max looks like a potato...)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-23 09:23 am (UTC)(link)
I do, but I don't know if you are being completely honest with me.

[ That's why she would rather see her in person. It would be easier to try and determine than on a public post with all these people trying to provoke her. ]
boobwindow: (tl;dr justice and stuff)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-24 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
I think there's something off about this and I'm going to get to the bottom of it, whether you like it or not.
boobwindow: (damn kids)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-25 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
Why are you even putting that junk in your body? Ugh!

[ Getting off topic. ]

I'm assuming they're keeping you in the same place they kept Lucifer. I'll be over soon.

[ Only to be turned away at the gate. ]
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[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-26 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
I hope you cooperated, at least.
boobwindow: (rolls eyes into infinity)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-27 11:23 am (UTC)(link)
You need to start taking this seriously.
boobwindow: (nobody calls me fragile)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-29 10:12 am (UTC)(link)
You're hurting your chances at a fair trial if you act out against the guards!
boobwindow: (legend of korra fans...)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-30 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
... no matter what I say, it's just going to go in one ear and out the other.
boobwindow: (secret window)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-30 07:55 am (UTC)(link)
What I want for you to understand is screwing up, even badly, doesn't mean you need to throw yourself to the wolves.
boobwindow: (quick change activate!)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-01-31 09:44 am (UTC)(link)
What will you get out of it?
boobwindow: (we could have had it aaaaall)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-02-01 08:18 am (UTC)(link)
Not like this, Kanaya. This isn't the way.

Let us try and help you.
boobwindow: (generic standing around icon)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-02-06 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
That's why I'm going to try.
boobwindow: (quick change activate!)

[personal profile] boobwindow 2015-02-07 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
For now.

[ Leave her mantle alone!! ]