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[glowsferatu]

hope can be such a fickle thing

ive lived my life without it for years and it chooses now of all times to barrel its way back in
but none of that makes it fit in the environment
its only like an ice cube trying to enjoy a summers day

even when im staring at it in front of me i cant seem to conquer the idea that it isnt mine
that im not the one who gets a happy ending its only being borrowed from someone else
another me from another timeline who things progressed more happily for
another me who could look at this and actually feel like shes earned it

i dont know what to do with this feeling
except to know its made a fool of me

[ She includes a photo taken on her desk, some weird black ball covered in candy corn spikes. Is it a Halloween decoration? ]

im going to be a mother after all

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[glowsferatu]

[ Nobody's business, because under these circumstances nobody will be getting down to any kind of business. ]

well
it wont be me getting our future straight
not in the strictest sense
but knowing that future will be straightened out is a kind of relief

[ She thinks about making a joke that any future she's involved in won't be straight in the strictest sense either, but decides against it. ]

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[helpline]

[ man, what with the Doctor thinking sex is gross and the other time lord being a dude who's now a lady, any future he's involved in wouldn't be entirely straight either ]

How long will it take the egg to hatch?

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[glowsferatu]

[ There is just no way to have only two of a kind without it being way too complicated. The multiverse demands maximum bullshit. ]

a few weeks i think
better not to have it immediately of course
i just had this much sprung on me but at least its only starting a timer instead of thrusting me into everything directly

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[helpline]

Apparently Mother Nature thinks that two weeks is enough time to get childcare nonsense and what have you sorted out.

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[glowsferatu]

i said a few
thats generally more than two
but personally i dont think id like it to be that much longer
ive waited a very long time already
adding too much of an amount to that just seems excessive

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[helpline]

[ god, all of this is JUST SO ANNOYINGLY FAMILIAR.... ]

What's the saying? Preaching to the choir?

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[glowsferatu]

[ The only thing more annoying than the universe being very into the whole idea of hurry up and wait is when other universes are just as into it. ]

if thats the case it sounds like the choir needs to do more singing

[ She doesn't even know he's an alien yet. ]

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[helpline]

[ because while he's up for broadcasting his Time Lordiness to the world....he's not entirely up for broadcasting the 'Time Lords were dead but now they're not, stuck in pocket universe' bit to everybody. Just Kanaya, cause she's an alien and she's cool ]

1: no other Time Lords here
2: Time Lords back home, but it's complicated. They're here but they're not.
2a: except Missy. But she's Missy
3: no point 3, I just didn't want to leave it with 2a. It looked off-balance.

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[glowsferatu]

[ Well, she can't really blame him for it. It's a bit prying, and people get out their personal business at their own pace. ]

okay so for the sake of providing context
aside from the obvious implication that its what you are what is a time lord
and aside from her being a but whos missy

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[helpline]

Best friend turned arch-enemy turned I honestly don't know what.
Guy turned crispy turned guy turned goo snake turned guy turned girl
Missy's complicated.

[ HOO BOY IS MISSY COMPLICATED ]

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[glowsferatu]

goo snake
is all of this typical of your species
is that what time lords are

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[helpline]

The goo snake was complicated.
And this isn't me trying to slither out of talking about the goo snake, this is me acknowledging the fact that the goo snake is complicated and a bit ridiculous even for me.

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[glowsferatu]

alright
so what about time lords then
youve rather been slithering around that one

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[helpline]

Well that's me.
Time Lord = Galifreyans who help make time run smoothly, occasionally correct some hiccups. Massive boring bureaucrats.

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[glowsferatu]

ive been aware of certain lords of time before
its a somewhat loaded phrase
but boring bureaucrats are generally preferable to omnidestructive demons

is galifrey a land or a world

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[helpline]

Planet.

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[glowsferatu]

are you a human species from that planet or does your species just bear an unfortunately strong resemblance

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[helpline]

Humans bear an unfortunately strong resemblance to me, thank you very much.

At least, to most Time Lords. You never can tell with regeneration, people have turned out blue sometimes.

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[glowsferatu]

sorry its just that ive been living on one earth or another for over four years now
and for many of the other aliens ive encountered there were no marked physical differences even without lachesis intervening on the matter
none of which is of course your fault
it just makes one feel as though she needs to be more obviously alien to ensure the banner is being upheld

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[helpline]

Well I can understand why that might happen. Tall enough to reach the top shelf, opposable thumbs, the ability to adapt to changing environments, legs for running, evolutionary speaking, this design is a pretty good design.

Still, I understand! It's terribly awkward when you're the representative for your entire species.

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[glowsferatu]

at the same time i feel like its almost inevitable in a situation like ours
the only exception thats even conceivable is that lachesis would decide to bring in other members of our species
but she could always have chosen a more natively diverse planet instead
somewhere with a more intergalactic awareness

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[helpline]

I think she's prejudiced. Either that, or she finds humans endearing—like a colony of ants.

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[glowsferatu]

im not sure that endearment is quite the prevailing emotion when one is holding a magnifying glass to them on an especially sunny day

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[helpline]

I'm willing to bet though that there are moments equivalent to shaking up the ant colony just to see what happens.

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[glowsferatu]

not as much recently
she hasnt been heard from in 21 months now
personally i think we are all the better for it