un: anonymous

[flightforfreedom]

[ There are some times that Poe is thankful for his powers. This, being able to ask his communicator to scramble his ID so that he can post anonymously, is one of them. He doesn't do this often. But something has been bothering him more and more, lately. ]

has there ever been something, or a multiple somethings, that you did that at the time you knew was right, and just, but then later - maybe after coming here - now makes it a little harder to sleep at night?

a lot of us come from places where we had to do a lot of shit we wish we didn't

but we could still tell ourselves we were doing the right thing

and i still think i was doing the right thing

but here i meet ghosts and i can't help but wonder if there wasn't another way

how do you deal with it, when you can't justify everything to yourself anymore? and that's not a rhetorical question, i honestly want to know




do you think earth has made you a better or a worse person

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private - - > un: poe dameron

[flightforfreedom]

okay but what if that planet had blown up five other planets like hours before that

[ aka: hi buddy please don't leave me out to dry like this ]

Re: private - - > un: poe dameron

[knaval]

oh hey poe
i was kind of hoping you were megatron cause i super wanna punch his face off still

i guess that makes it less black and white?
megatron destroyed planets just to take their resources and for his own gain

that kinda sounded like maybe it was for the best it got blown up? and that you didn't have a choice, like i said

what brought this on?

private

[flightforfreedom]

i mean you could punch me but it probably wouldn't be as cathartic

it was for the best
they used it to kill billions of people

still doesn't change that i blew it up
and the people who should have gone down with it were the ones that escaped



i met someone

and now every time i think about the people on that base, i just picture him instead

he wasn't on it, but people like him were

i used to figure if they didn't defect, then they were a casualty of war. they were on the other side, boom, done. there wasn't anything personal to it

but i didn't really realise how many good people could still be there
defecting isn't what would make them good

i don't know

fuck

Re: private

[knaval]

i don't want to punch you

sorry. i know how frustrating it is when you want to take down some people with a target area and they run away like the cowardly slag drippings they are.

war brings a special kind of mentality
all the decepticon mtos i killed were like me, too. they were just thrown into the battle with no chance to even really figure out their own name and fought out of fear and instinct.
here is a relative peace-time, you have to remember

i think there are very few options you get to make yourself in a war, ones we have here
if you had met those people, would they have open fired? or would they have put their weapons down and tried to make peace?
i could talk to a non djd decepticon here and probably find some level of getting along with them, but back home we'd immediately try to tear each other's heads off

maybe this good person you met would've tried to kill you back home too. even if they didn't want to.
it goes both ways.