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[burlyboy]

So, uh... I got kind of a weird question. Bear with me here. Do any of you find that you get memory problems sometimes? I'm not talking, like, when you get ported out and get ported back in and everything just goes poof!, or forgetting where you put down your keys or what have you. More like - there's something important you feel like you're forgetting about.

[ Magnus scratches at his chin. ]

'Cause I swear to god, there's always something I should be doing, but then a second later, it just... [ He gestures vaguely at the camera. ] Shit from when I was in a kid too. It never used to bug me, but this is getting old. So, uh, if any of you know how to fix it or wanna tell me I'm not just crazy, big ups! Burnsides out.

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[pullsheavendown]

[Almost immediately, Roxas regrets giving this network thing a try. But he answers anyway, because he wishes he'd had someone to talk about this kind of thing when he was the one with the questions.]

Yes. More than once.

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[burlyboy]

Okay, well. That's somethin'.

What happened?

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[adamantlyardent]

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WELL...]

That...that sounds more like a mind-curse?

[beat.]

Or the effects of blunt-force trauma.

[burlyboy]

...Well, I have been hit in the head a whole bunch! You got me there!

But that whole mind-curse shit - any way you can tell when someone's got one placed on 'em?

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[justlittle]

[ The choice of his "anonymous" username will be obvious to anyone who knows Bean from home, but he's pretty sure there isn't anyone here from home, so he should be good. ]

No. I remember everything I've ever seen, read, heard, or thought about.

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[burlyboy]

Ughhh, what's with everyone and needing to write shit out? If I wanted to write at people, that's what I would've done in the first place.

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[killtime]

I forget big shit all the time. But I'm old, so. [ SHRUG ]

[burlyboy]

...you don't look that old. There's just a lotta kids around here. It's enough to make anyoen feel ancient.

[slightlyoffchilt]

Perhaps you should seek psychiatric help.

[burlyboy]

I'm not crazy! I just forget shit. What would a psychiatrist do about that?

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[dragony]

Sometimes, but not the same as you, I don't think. I used to lose chunks of time, like — it would feel like one moment to the next, for me, but it'd been hours for everybody else. Sometimes days, but there's whole weeks I've lost, too.

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[burlyboy]

Well, hey now, let's back up a bit before we decide it's different right off the bat. So, uh... do you know why you lose chunks of time?

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[hellosirs]

What does it feel like when you try to remember? Does the thought just sort of... slip away, or do you find yourself thinking about something else, instead?

[ because this is starting to sound AWFULLY FAMILIAR... ]

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[burlyboy]

Both? Kind of?

[ He sighs. He should probably show the kid at some point. Maybe he'll make some sense of it. He gets the sensation that it's dangerous, that it's something he ought to keep to himself, but that hasn't done him a whole lot of good. ]

I know what you're thinking. But that can't be possible. We're already innoculated, remember?

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[isthatyou]

[Sup, person made of grass here.]

I can kinda relate but I know where my problems come from and it probs wouldn't apply to you.

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[burlyboy]

[ Grassperson! Neato! ]

Wellllll even if it doesn't strictly apply, I'll never say no to hearing more about someone else. What's your story?

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[youresovein]

[ he opens this feed wearing his sunglasses just so he can lower them down the bridge of his nose curiously. ]

Do you remember when it started?

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[burlyboy]

Kinda. I never really noticed til someone else pointed it out, oh... let's say about ten years ago? Ish? Didn't think much of it at the time.

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[prayercycles]

[ Fortunato can't say he's particularly familiar with this phenomenon. Unless-

No, he can't think of a reason someone would make Magnus forget anything. But there's much he doesn't know about the man. Considering Magnus' usual profession... ]

Magnus- were you badly hurt? Recently.

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[burlyboy]

Nah. This isn't 'cause of me getting bopped on the noggin, if that's what you're thinking. Not a bad guess, though!

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[continuousgroaning]

Is this a recent thing? Are you OK?

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[burlyboy]

I'm fine! Promise. This isn't anything you gotta worry about. My memory's been shit long before I even met the boys, let alone you.

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[lesterzeppelin]

You're not crazy, first off. [ Apollo pauses, pressing his lips together - ] My memory's not that great either, but... do you think someone messed with yours? Somehow?

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[burlyboy]

It's possible. Can't think of why someone would do that to me, but it's possible. I just don't know how to find that part out.

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[melodramagic]

[ This gives her some mild guilt because she's messed with someone's memory before. ]

What are you thinking of before you start having issues remembering?

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[burlyboy]

...see, that's the thing. Once I forget, I forget. 's like I can't hold onto the thought in the first place. I s'pose it's - some shit from when I was younger? And -- some detail I'm forgetting.

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[knaval]

[funnily enough, riptide has a similar problem with rung and the information creep, though he's not really losing important information like magnus is. just, uh, forgetting who god is! he also doesn't remember he forgot, so it's mostly a non-issue.]

Sounds like some fucky organic mnemosurgery.

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[burlyboy]

Mnemo-what and what now?

[neganomics]

Write it down. That's what people always used to say back when the world was normal. We can stick all your little to-do list things right on the fridge.

[burlyboy]

See, that's fine for forgetting to pick up the milk and all that shit, but I'm talking about bigger things.

[ ... ]

And I can't seem to remember shit long enough to write it down.

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[viciousmaukery]

[...dammit, and here Molly has been covering his own gigantic memory gaps with stories and bullshit. But Magnus is a friend, and he can help, so he sighs and fiddles with the comm’s settings first before he answers.]

You’re not crazy. [He shrugs.] From my own experience, the only way to fix it is to just move on with your life. Whatever it was, it might’ve been important once, but it doesn’t have any relevance on who you are right now.

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[burlyboy]

Wait, you have this problem too? [ He frowns. ]

D'you really believe that? Seems to me that who we are is what we've done, even if we can't remember it.

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[heliophilic]

Magnus, are you all right?

[As for the question he asked, Magnus, more than anyone here, should know the answer to that. It might have been an elaborate dream, but the memories are still there.]

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[burlyboy]

I'm fine! Really! It's just -- it's been bugging me lately, that's all. Figured we got enough smart folks here that maybe someone can do something about it.

[kidsmenu]

Bonjour, Magnes! It is lovely to see you are well. Apart from some-- gaps in your memory, I suppose.

Did you ever have difficulty with taking the laudanum? Or consume quite a lot of wine? I know some children start quite early with all that.

[burlyboy]

Don't know what laudanum is. I mean, yeah, I've taken a few hits to the head and drank a bunch back in the day and smoked, like, a lot of weed --

[ It's probably impressive he's not missing more memories than he is. ]

-- but this is different. I can feel it in my bones.

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[a_good]

Did it start before you got here, or after?

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[burlyboy]

[ Not again. ]

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