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005 ♣ VIDEO ♠ Choice

[Ah, when was the last time he posted to this thing- it feels like ages, though it's only been a month or so, how interesting, time does fly here despite being dreadfully idle during a majority of it. And if he recalls, he wasn't even playing 'himself' really in his last message here, more just to pass the time. Of course this new post he plans will be nothing but nonsense--

or seem it anyway.]

[You can tell a lot about someone by what they have to say after all, especially during games.]

[The video shows what appear to be legs and feet. The camera stares down the legs of his white harem pants and shows his feet, crossed at the ankles up on some chair beside him, in atlantic blue high heels. Hisoka seems to be at some cafe, there's a rather pink looking tea cup at his side on a table.]

Let's play a game, shall we? I'm sure many of us looking at the network for now have nothing better to do. Have you ever played 'Would You Rather?' It relies on creativity and a degree of forethought. [And can be a lot more indepth and profound than one might think. Or so he hopes it will be.]

You create two situations and ask which someone would prefer. Shall I start? Perhaps something simple to get our feet wet.

[His legs uncross, and cross in the opposite way, a hand with bright, long, clawed nails appears and picks up the cup for a moment before setting it back down.]

Would you rather- to lose a hand forever or a foot forever?

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[ He dislikes that this topic is taken lightly. Scars are important. Missing limbs, even more so. ]

it depends

why were they lost ?

[Hey now, he's lost some limbs and got over it, infact, he let them be taken for a good show. Get over it.]

That's not really the point, say it's merely a choice you have, you must choose one. The choice isn't choose one of these or something else happens. It's merely a situation where these two options are the only ones you have.

[ He won't. Limbs are not small matters. ]

an arm

for a good reason . not for no reason

its not a game .

[Had he someone to sew them right back on and the money to pay for such a thing it probably wouldn't matter as much. Ah, but in this scenario Hisoka made, even that isn't allowed. So it would be rather serious, wouldn't it? Still, it says oodles that this man is so serious about the matter. That's why he likes this game. Again you can learn so much about someone by their answers and questions.]

[Hisoka smiles, chuckling to himself at the answer.]

Oh but this is a game. Though if you need a serious reason, it doesn't matter, as long as you make your choice.

So then. It's your turn.

[ That’s not a real reason, Grey thinks. But at least a choice is better than no reason at all.

He doesn’t think he likes this game. ]

a choice for you

[ That’s right, isn’t it? He thinks about it. ]

you can go home to everyone you know
or bring all of them here . every one
which ?

[He's free to go with less macabre scenarios if that's what makes it more fun for him. He could ask if he'd rather get a to eat a pie everyday or get a new puppy.]

Ah... [Hisoka pauses.]

[That question. His answer would have been easy had he been asked closer to his arrival. But now... Now he has things here he wouldn't want to change. But he liked his world better.]

Would I remember everything were I to go home? Or would it be as people say, would I lose what I've gained in this world?

[His tone is a little less playful as well. More blank, thoughtful if anything.]

[ Grey considers that. He doesn't really know, because he hasn't been home. He doesn't think that he could go home. He thinks that he would just stop, if he left here, and then it wouldn't matter anyway. ]

you dont know

you have to decide without knowing

which ?

Then to stay, and bring them all here.

[A selfish answer. Should be expected from him though.]

[ Grey nods. It is, after all, the same choice he would make. ]

so here is better than home

why ?

I've grown fond of "relationships" I've built here. I won't ever have them again if I go home, will I?

[ Okay then. He’s probably skipping his turn here, but: ]

you can take everyone you like here back there

or bring everyone you like there here

which ?

[He certainly doesn't mind at all.]

Will I keep my memories? Will they? Should I bring those I have an interest in back home with me?

yes you keep your memories
so do they .
bring whoever you like

In that case, I'd choose to go home.

[ Well, then. All right. That's somewhat enlightening, anyway. ]

ok

so home is not so bad .

Not for me, can you not say the same?

no

i would bring them here .

[ Regardless of memories, or anything else. They'd thank him for it. It would be so much better than anything they left behind on that Train. ]

Is that because home is not much of a home then? Do you like it here?

home was a bad place . i like it here
but i cant go home anyway
i would die
its not a choice .

[ Not the way it had been for Hisoka, anyway. He’d been interested in what it was like to have that choice, because he doesn’t have it himself. ]

You would die if you were turned home? Did you die before you arrived here? Or is it an inevitable truth in your world? How sad...

[ Grey considers. ]

both

the porter brought me back . that is not sad

[ It’s a matter of perspective, really. Even if he didn’t die, he probably still wouldn’t want to go back. Not unless certain others would avoid dying, too. ]

I know others like you, those from my own world too. How does it feel knowing that? To only be alive here, are you that thankful to the Porter?

[ Grey isn’t sure he understands this question. Is there really anyone who would rather be dead? If given the choice to exist or not, surely they would choose to live.

He is about to say so, and then he thinks back on that moment. The knife being driven slowly in, knowing that everything was ending. Knowing that he had done his best, and there was no more fight to be had. He would make the same choices now that he had then.

But he also has more to live for, now. ]

it feels better than dying

[ That much is true, and is easy to say. Less complicated than everything going through his head. ]

id rather be here than nowhere
id rather be here than home

[ He sends that, and then hesitates, his eyes stuck on the words. Then he adds: ]

its just people that i miss

Nowhere? So then you don't believe in an after life?

[Not that he did either, but it was an interesting thing to ask. And he knew others would accept death more than life- though those types he had no interest at all. The dead.]

None of those people are here? Some of us are rather lucky. Surely you've made some connections here since arriving? Or is making friends difficult for you?

[ Grey hesitates. An after life? No one has ever asked him that before, and he isn't sure how to answer.

If there is any after life, surely it's here? This is where he's come after he died. He doesn't remember anything else. ]

this is after life . i believe in this

i miss people from the train
there are others here

i have friends . they are good people
that wasnt difficult .

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