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006 ♍ voice

[ kanaya knows she has to make this confession, not that she's particularly looking forward to it. but now that they've put her in solitary, nothing about this punishment has been satisfying. she needs something better.

everyone needs to know, but she doesn't want their pity, and doesn't deserve their sympathy. so. she kind of goes a little too far in the other direction, there. ]

I've been quiet the past few days. I say this not as an apology, because I don't particularly give a shit, but as an explanation. For those who don't know me, my name is Kanaya Maryam, an for the past few months I've been moonlighting as a costumed thug. One might even go so far as to say I was a supervillain.

Shocking, isn't it? I was a bit surprised, myself. [ not that she's going to explain that one. ]

As Hobgoblin, I committed numerous crimes, whether disrupting traffic, harassing the costumed set, playing ghost in a haunted house, other, more serious infractions. Kidnapping. Stalking. And...worse than that. [ her flippant tone cracks, her voice falling low and shaky. ] I've-- I've hurt people. People who didn't deserve it. Innocents.

[ there's a fury brimming in that last word, a self-loathing and shame. she can feel her hands shaking, her knuckles going white as she balls her fists. but they won't see that, it's important that they don't. if they recognize any remorse, it will defeat the whole purpose.

she takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly as she collects herself again. ]

For all of these things, the most the local authorities have seen fit to do is stick me in a room alone without my powers. Which is really great, I must say. Wonderful to know that we feed and house our criminals when law-abiding residents have no such amenities, especially when they aren't registered! I must say this world's punitive measures are deeply impressive, it truly overwhelms me with compunction, how much softer-handed it is than I expected when I turned myself in. I suppose I shouldn't be really surprised, when the approach to everything is such a joke, such a limp attitude toward justice is at least consistent.

But it isn't real justice. It's a mockery. [ she thinks of terezi, and wonders if she'd be more embarrassed by the meagerness of it, or that kanaya submitted herself willingly. terezi would know what to do here. ]

I'm sure many of you could do better, someone who really believes in the subject, unless you're too stuck in all the nonsense moralizing humans too often preoccupy themselves with. You're heroes. I'm a villain. That seems simple enough to me.

If you want to see real justice done, I'm not going anywhere.

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I'm... [ the other goblin. of course he'd have run into her, everything always has to be convoluted like that. ] I'm not affiliated with the other goblin.

She's the one who stopped me.

[ well it's, hmm, a creative way of looking at it. that fight was what killed hobgoblin, but it isn't because she lost. ]

And how the hell did that happen? She's a weakling.

[Kaine had noticed that rather quickly.]

[ oh dude. ]

HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU KNOW?

Have you ever actually fought her?! You don't have any inkling what she's capable of, what she's survived and seen the end of! If she had reason, she could end you like you were nothing.

I saw how she handled people in that bombing. She couldn't lift anyone. She's barely a goblin.

But you can go on dreaming about her imagined strength.

Really? You come from a world full of superpowers and still believe that the only form of strength is physical?

I can't begin to tell you how shortsighted that is.

Are you fucking serious?

[Are they really going to get into a weird bullshitty thing about mental fortitude? Because he is super not interested.]

Are you fucking serious? You've never met anyone who fought with magic, or energy projection? I'm sure I'd love to see how well you fight against an explosion!

[ magic is a big deal, kaine. it's blown a hole through her gut, it could blow his head up. you never know what you'll get with magic. ]

Oh. That.

[No cartoon friendship bullshit. At least there's that.]

She's already shown how little she uses that well.

Why, because she hasn't killed you yet?

[ her voice drops lower, seething. ] Because she didn't kill me?

Why would we fight? [He's asking largely because he's curious.]

It only took you this long to get to my point, congratulations. You have no reason to fight, and so you've had no opportunity to witness.

You're in no position whatsoever to make statements about her capabilities.

No, you two had no reason to fight, either. That's why you're both pulling this melodramatic bullshit in public.