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[04] Voice

[ So even though the feed opens up, Walt doesn't talk for a moment or so. There's a sharp inhale and it's accompanied by a piteous cough. And then after a couple minute pause, he starts talking -- sounding rather relaxed. ]

Today was my birthday.

[ A beat. Nonchalant. ]

But it's also my death anniversary. How many people can say that? Their life came a full and complete circle, starting and ending all on the same day? I mean, what are the chances? Pretty crazy, that.

[ Another brief pause. Another follow up cough. When he speaks, his voice is a little strained. ]

I mean like, this whole world. What an insane concept, right? To think that our own individual worlds are just this tiny fraction of all the different worlds out there -- some with crazy powers or vampires or Satan. We have Satan. Does anyone ever stop to think about that? How Satan has a TV show? I mean, I guess...what a better way to say welcome to hell than Satan with his own TV show. I've never actually watched it, mind. But I imagine it probably involves burning people alive.

But following that thought -- I still think this place is hell. I mean, I can't be the only dead guy walking here, can I? And it's definitely not heaven. My therapist called it purgatory once.

[ A beat. ]

Purgatory is kind of accurate. Sometimes he knows what he's talking about. All of us just sitting here and waiting -- to either go home and die for good or to do whatever it is we do here. I mean, we can't die. There's a definite statistical likelihood that we come back to life if we get killed, so do we age? I'm 53 today, but am I not really 53? Am I eternally 52 until I die again? Do I die again? Or do I just live an endless loop of my life -- dying, coming here, dying coming here until some otherworldly being makes up their mind?

Maybe that's what Satan's show is about. Collecting as many of us that belong in hell and dragging us back with him. That's a pretty morbid thought, isn't it?

[ So why is Walt laughing. Why is Walt laughing like it's the most hilarious thing in the world? Why is he laughing at all? What was he laughing at again?

The laughter dies. ]

What was I talking about again? [ But it's lost. ] Anyway, I just want to know. Is there anyone else out there who died? Bonus if you died on your birthday. Might be good to talk about it. Therapeutic. And I'm here to listen. We can talk here or in person. If anyone wants to go with me to get birthdeath day breakfast for dinner, that could be a thing. That we do.

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[ there is a pause for a half second there, before Kaneki smiles right after!

:) ]

Nothing I can think of. Books, maybe? [ eating people. Killing too. Power hunger. Maybe going crazy, too. He thinks he is great at being a monster. ]

What about you, Mr. White?

Well. I brought it up by asking how delicious your apple pie is. And from that, I could tell just how much he adores you.

Oh. I definitely recommend taking a trip up that way and tasting it. It's exquisite.

If you're registered, you can take the porter to De Chima and then just hop on a train. It's really not that long of a trip. Made even shorter by magical teleportation devices -- can you believe the technology here? Incredible!

Oh. Oh no, don't worry. I won't mention it.

[ But Walt does feel pretty honored that she would share something so personal with him. ]

But for the record, I don't judge you. You're still a person, no matter how you came into this world.

Th-thank you, Mr. White. That's very kind of you to tell me!

[Blushing so hard now.]

Because I've done things. Questionable, horrible things. Things that most of the world would condemn me for. So how, then, could I condemn someone else for doing the same kinds of things?

I'm talking about murder... [ He gives a quick check to the communicator tag name before he adds on: ] Tobias.

And what, really, is there that's worse than that? Torture? Hurting others? Dousing a whole Swear In full of people in fear toxin? Coming to this world, I've seen things. I've seen monsters in men's clothing. And I don't judge them in the least.

I even worked alongside a demon who could toy with people's memories and make them relive their most horrid experiences until he betrayed me. So I'm not sure there's much of anything you could tell me that would turn me away from you.

We can aim for some time in the upcoming week. I think I'll be preoccupied for the next few days celebrating.

but I got all those things.

Dog person or cat person?

[ Hey! Walt, too! Monsters together forever. ]

Well. I am advanced in chemistry. I taught high school chemistry back home and teach part time here as well. I also work at the pharmacy with chemicals on a daily basis. So there's that.

[ And meth making. ]

But I'm sure your being modest. After all, you were very helpful with your notes and research. You had all of that prepared, and that's more than a lot of people do in this world.

You should have delivered it to his house. Given it back to him with some horribly taunting message. Something like 'here. I gave this to you so you can cry on it while you imagine me with my boyfriend. In bed. Intimately. While he makes me feel way better than you ever did.'

[ Walt is pretty glad Abduxel stayed away from his furniture, though. ]

Well he obviously did something right when it comes to you. Is he here?

[ It's not like it's the first time family has been brought together. ]

I would like to congratulate him if he is.

Yeah. Yeah, I get that. Like- There's some moments where you want to just be like "I died! Doesn't that matter?", just because life is so normal here, and it wasn't back home. Yeah.

[ Teresa's nodnodnoding along, and it's- weird, yeah, for someone to actually get it. she's a little grateful for the question, because it's still related but it's not so on-the-nose ]

About nine months now. It feels like longer, sometimes.

Edited 2015-09-30 03:12 (UTC)

Thank you. That's nice to hear.

[And it is. After a whole life time of hearing things like 'puppet' and 'it' and 'doll' hissed at her, being told she's a person means a lot.]

I wish more people thought like that where I came from.

[ monster buds. ]

Considering I know nothing of chemistry, that sounds like expertise to me. Must be fun in some ways, though. [ as a literature student, he never did anything awesome like building volcanoes, creating perfumes... making meth. ]

I think most people would just call me picky and paranoid for that. [ because he is, yes. But those notes exist because Kaneki wants to make sure he finds out everything he can about this place, since he doesn't trust the government ] I like to be pro-active.

That demon—you mean Matthew. So you know...

[Presumably they both know his other name, the demon one. There's something else in his tone of voice, something dark and conflicted because his relationship with Abduxel is a complicated one, the source of much torment. In spite of this, Tobias still longs for the demon's acceptance.]

But I find it difficult to confide on these devices, on this network. Especially when I haven't met someone face-to-face, and while there's something to be said about the video function, it's of no use to me. I have no reflection, and cannot be captured on camera or video. So, I believe the only other option is to actually meet. In person.

[ O-Oh that's wonderful to hear, considering how often Kid berates himself for not measuring up to his father's legacy. He perks slightly, although it's a visible let down when he shakes his head in response to the question. ]

Ah, no, he isn't. There's been no one else here from my world, at least as long as I've been present, nor could I find any record of past imPorts I recognized.

But it's better that he's not here, as he's needed. It would be disastrous if both he and I were away from the world.

I have no doubt. Feel free to call me, when you're ready.

[ Dorian can't help but laugh at that, shaking his head as he smiles at Walt. ]

Why on Earth aren't we friends already. I like the way you think.

I know it's difficult, but you can't worry about what the majority thinks. Not if you ever want to be truly happy. I mean, you must have friends of your own. People who know, but still like you for who you are.

And who you are is a very nice and very intelligent young woman. I don't see how anyone could think ill of you.

Yes, I know. I know a great deal about him. I know that he won't hesitate to backstab you, even if you're treating him like gold.

[ But Walt can understand Tobias's hesitance when it comes to the network. The talk about a lack of reflection means that this is yet another supernatural being -- a fact that after seven months in this world, Walt's coming to not even bat an eye at. ]

I would be more than happy to meet with you in person. I can't this evening, but perhaps tomorrow? Or whenever works best for you.

I'm surprised we haven't spoken sooner then. It's been about seven months for me. And I...

I didn't exactly adjust well to this world.

Did you find it difficult when you first arrived or act out in any way?

No one's every called me that before.

[She is absolutely blushing shyly at that.]

I don't know- I mean, I'm just trying to be the best person that I can be. I don't know all that much, but I'm learning more and more every day, so maybe one day I can be as smart as someone who's lived a whole bunch of days longer than I got to.

But... I am happy. I'm happy I get to the chance to be more than I was before. Do you feel like that too?

[Though he goes unseen, Tobias scowls at what Walt says of Abduxel, even though the words ring true.]

Your... anniversary, or anniversaries, if you will, demand celebrating. This week seems rather hectic for me; perhaps next week, if you're available one evening.

[Because only at night. Ever.]

[Riku's half interested by this statement, but he's not nosy or rude enough to just ask him outright. He figures if Walt wants to tell him, eventually he will, so he simply nods.]

Yeah. There's... a lot of things I've done in that vein. It's hard to explain to someone who hasn't felt backed into a corner like that.

There's really nothing left of my world, so the only thing difficult about being here was that it felt too... Nice?

Super strength was also a pain to get the hang of. It's not so bad anymore, though.

What didn't you like about it? Or should I be asking what don't you like?

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